Whether you know it, believe it, or understand it, you are the one who is keeping me going through all of this.

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I think one of the best feelings in the world is when someone remembers something you said. Whether it was something from yesterday, a week ago, a month ago.. It’s just like, “Wow, you actually listen to me.”

I wish I could say idgaf. But really I do give so many fucks.

Stomach churning with anxiety and butterflies.

I want to vomit. 

Tonight I whipped out my ‘lost in the world playlist,’ got into my car, and drove around relentlessly for an hour or 2.
Emotions flooded my mind and tears just came streaming down my face.

It’s as easy as confronting the situation and finding the truth to rid these feelings, but I think I’m more afraid of what the answer may be.
On the other hand, maybe it was me that was wrong all along, that I am the one who caused all these problems.
Or better yet, I’m thinking too much and nothing is really wrong at all.

But either way, I don’t know how to solve this situation, someone just tell me what to do.

One day were totally fine, the next it all went downhill.

I don’t know what it is or why this always happens, around the people I am most close with and even more around people I don’t know.
I wish I were able to not worry so much about being judged by other people or afraid of being laughed at and humiliated.
Every time I try to overcome these fears, my confidence holds me back. As much as I want to break these frightening sensations, I am so damn scared.

Just thinking about this situation, I want to cry myself to sleep tonight.

Might as well wipe my ass, feed me breast milk, and tuck me into bed while you’re at it.